There was an article that I read not too long ago that was talking about loneliness and one of the sentences in it really caught my eye. It said, "Because here's the thing about being lonely - it's not enough of a problem to warrant complaint. It is not perceived to be debilitating - you can still get up every morning when you're lonely, do a good job at work and be a healthy, productive member of society." And I found that to be so true.
To me, it has been something that I've been trying to sweep under the rug. Really, because there wasn't anything that I could do about it. With the fifteen hour difference, nobody is ever awake when I'm busy breaking down and balling my eyes out. Nobody is awake when I need them and you just end up coping with things by yourself. It's not a life or death issue, but at the same time it is. Sometimes I wish that I was better at this. I wish that I was strong enough, I wish that I didn't have to go through periods of loneliness where it gets so apparent to me that I feel like I'm not worth the company. It gets so apparent to me to the point where I convince myself that this is all I'll ever be. It becomes an insecurity, the fact that I'm alone.
But at the same time, there's nothing anyone else can do. Neither is there anything that I can do.
What do you do when you're lonely, depressed and insecure while trying not to sound like a whiney, childish, immature human being?
